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What is the meaning of life?

I remember my junior year of high school I was in a play called Everything I Need to Know in Kindergarten , the last scene of this play was about the meaning of life.  From the time I was in middle school until my junior year of college I spent much time thinking about this very matter, making up philosophies and such.  All of them involved trials taking place to learn a lesson for the future.  Life was this complicated thing about destiny and doing what you were meant to do, doing what you loved, giving yourself to others.  Living life was such a romantisized thing, such an important thing.  It was about loving, giving, caring, being loved, being part of something greater, fufilling your passion...  I wonder how it became something less important, I wonder when and how it became about bills and making a living.  I wonder when even romance was not romantisized in my brain.  Somewhere along the way I got away from the precious intangibles of life and became more about the tangibles.  I started making my job about money, my life about presentation, and romance about honesty and stability.  I have made everything "real" few things intangible and everything measurable.  Perhaps now, that life is becoming more stable, just maybe it can be come romantic once again.